People have been writing in diaries and committing their thoughts to paper for as long as the written word has been with us. It's said that writing down one's thoughts can be theraputic and, just as dreams are supposed to be an unconscious ordering of the mental 'filing cabinet', conscious writing also supposedly helps to clarify and organize one's thoughts and feelings.

I hesitated before creating this blog but probably (fortunately!) no-one will read it anyway. Internet sites have become the modern equivalent of diaries and have proliferated to the point where the number of them on the Web almost guarantees anonimity. Anything I write here is really for me anyway rather than being aimed at a third party. It's the therapy I need, not the publicity or notoriety. Why not simply write in a diary then...? I don't know. I just find it easier putting this stuff on 'my' website and having it stored electronically rather than using paper. In a number of years, if I'm still alive, it will be an interesting exercise to look back on my feelings about 'life, the Universe and everything' to see how they have changed. They almost certainly will have as I know only too well that many of my attitudes, fears, concerns and beliefs are fundamentally different now than when I was a very young man. Age and experience changes one's outlook on life - and not always for the better. I am considerably more cynical and far less idealistic now than when I was 21. I have lost my religious faith, I am much more argumentative and objectionable and I have compromised, capitulated, broken pledges and 'interpreted' rules to the point where I no longer believe that I can claim to be a thoroughly 'good' man. Don't misunderstand, I'm as moral and upstanding as most people and better than many people I've encountered, but over the years, I've started to fall short of my own expectations and my self-image has undoubtedly suffered. On the upside, I believe I'm more passionate, committed and determined (or do I just mean stubborn?) now than a decade or two ago. Maybe further changes - good or bad - will become apparent as my blog unfolds.

If anyone does read this, there will be attitudes which they may agree with and, without doubt, other opinions which they will vehemently disagree with. I don't care; as I've already said, this exercise is to exorcise (isn't the English language wonderful!) the vitriol in me, not to enter into a debate with a stranger. So, here goes - in no particular order...........

Seems like the only time I write anything on my Blog is when I'm partially (or totally) inebriated.... and so it is tonight! I feel like a rant but I'm not quite sure what to rant about (there's SO MUCH, I don't know where to begin!) I heard someone define Democracy today .... "Where two morons can out-vote one genius". That just about summed it up for me. This is the Political and Social system we're trying to force upon the 'uncivilised' Middle-East??? What we actually need is a system where everyone is 'intelligence tested' and if they're found to be below acceptable levels**, they shouldn't be allowed to vote. Also, ALL politicians should be independent rather than representing a party - a 'party' is simply a tribe and tribalism is the main reason (apart from oil of course) why people are still killing each other in masses in this modern world in which we live. Another selection criterion for politicians ought to be that they recieve no pay and that they are doing what they do purely for altruistic reasons. That would stop the fuckers fiddling their expenses - there'd be NO EXPENSES!!! Ha! I'm going to publish my Manifesto soon and if anyone e-mails me in support, I swear, I'll stand for the next local elections!

**(Who decides what are "acceptable" levels of intelligence. Me of course! Meglomania rules OK)

4h February 2012

I've been reading quite a lot about quantum physics recently and I really like the concept of the 'Multiverse' which favours the theory of an infinite number of universes. I have hopes that perhaps there's a Universe somewhere in which I don't always behave like a complete arsehole!

28th December 2011 (and about to transition into a new year feeling imperfect, insecure and a little unappreciated)

Go to more CURRENT THOUGHTS ;

I REALLY hope there are aliens out there planning an invasion.... Read more  

Some people think these places are morally questionable..... Read more  

It’s an itch I can’t not scratch..... Read more  

Religion defies logic - it confirms just how primitive we really are. I'm not sure if there's actually a God or a 'supreme being' but I would like to think there was. However, I recognise that thought for just what it is - 'wishful thinking'. Come to think of it, we'd better hope there isn't a God because, looking around at all the greed and hatred in the world, if God exists, we're all going to Hell! God's not blameless either - talk about taking your eye off the ball! If there is actually a God, he/she/it has an awful lot to answer for..... MORE SOON

This is my Hell..... Read more

There's no doubt in my mind that we're fucking up this planet in a big way. Greed and consumerism has brought us, as a Species, to the point where our arrogance at being at the top of the food chain means that ..... Read more

There are almost too many to list and the number's growing. As the World gets closer and closer to disappearing around the u-bend, I find I'm becoming less and less tolerant of the nonsense we all have to put up within our daily lives..... Read more

Although it feels good to have a rant about things which wind you up, life's not all bad. Yin and Yang, black and white, good and bad..... there's balance between the extremes. For everything which has the potential to send me on a homicidal killing spree, there's something which balances it out which calms me, amuses me, fills me with joy, makes me passionate, makes me cry or just reaffirms my faith in Human nature ..... Read more

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